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[17 Oct 2004|06:04pm] |
http://www.livejournal.com/users/forxmyxsins
Thats my new lj. I've had this one for almost two years, and I've hated the name the whole time so it's time for a change. I haven't added anyone yet because I don't want to sit in front of the computer any longer, but add it if you care.
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[16 Oct 2004|11:40pm] |
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Went to Brockton with Courtney.
Bet her that she couldn't eat three donuts and two muffins between a Dunkin Donuts in Brockton and Roman's. I lost.
Watched Guns Up and Colin of Arabia.
Left.
Took us like two hours to get to NH because of the rain.
Slept in the car in a reststop.
Talked about a lot of things.
Made the most of a wasted trip, because we're so fucking posi it hurts.
Got to her house at 10am. Slept until 2. Came home and did nothing.
Now I'm watching the Red Sox get slaughtered. I will always have hope though.
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[11 Oct 2004|06:47pm] |
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So I finally got a car today. Not exactly what I had in mind, but they let me take it home tonight, which makes it a lot easier on my family. And since it's an American car it will be much easier and cheaper to have fixed and serviced. And the manual and controls are in English, which apparently is not the case on 1994 Volvos that were sold before I could buy it. Having four people share two cars doesn't work well. I have to go do the loan paperwork tomorrow, which shouldn't take long hopefully.
If you're interested, heres the car I got: http://www.colewhitneyford.com/cars/car.asp?id=1184
Heres the car I wanted: http://www.quirkauto.com/detail.contentzone.asp?VIN=WAUBA34B1WN057657&r=e
shesgothardluck (6:46:59 PM): OUR CARS MATCH!!
xlivenoregretsx (6:47:02 PM): haha I know!
shesgothardluck (6:47:03 PM): SATURNS!!!
shesgothardluck (6:47:05 PM): WOOO
shesgothardluck (6:47:10 PM): holy shit we're gay
xlivenoregretsx (6:47:11 PM): but mines just ONE color. I win.
shesgothardluck (6:47:34 PM): ouuuuch
xlivenoregretsx (6:47:38 PM): ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZING
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[09 Oct 2004|12:05pm] |
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My car finally died yesterday. It lasted 241,767 miles. It survived a wheel falling off on the interstate, numerous trips to shows, and the gravel pit behind Pat's house.
I cleaned it yesterday afternoon and found the following items that can be claimed:
1 pair of mitre soccer socks (courtney?)
1 copy of Gwar's "It's Sleazy" (pat)
3 free film developing coupons at wal mart (ama)
1 spiked ball on a rope (pat)
Theres more but I can't think of it all right now, nothing important really. If anyone wants their shit back let me know before the car is destroyed.
The good news is I can now buy a new car. But seeing as I need one by Monday I'm gonna end up with something I really don't want. Whatever.
RIP Van of Sketch / Monster Van
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[07 Oct 2004|08:58pm] |
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Hmmm.
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[29 Sep 2004|06:44pm] |
Today at work I had a boxcutter duel with one of my coworkers. I lost and have a deep incision on my side. It was worth it though.
I realized today that all I ever do is work, come home, sleep. I do this day after day. On the weekends I go to a show if theres one, and thats usually the only time I see any of my dwindling friends. But I have a goal and this time nothing's getting in the way. I can deal with working all the time and doing nothing for a few months.
I went to buy a car last night but it had already been sold. I was pretty pissed, since I fell in love with it the night before. But I'm going again on Saturday morning. I'm basically looking for either a VW Jetta or Passat, a Saab 9-3, or a Subaru small hatchback thingy (don't know the model name). But at this point I'll pretty much take anything that runs and has a sunroof.
Anyways.....I actually hung out with people after work today. I met up with Doug and Pat and we looked at some cars. Saw some old dude having a heart attack or something. We were too busy laughing to help. Yeah I know I'd be going to hell if it was real, I've already accepted that fact.
I miss you. Please call me soon.
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[25 Sep 2004|01:03pm] |
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Went down to the South Shore last night with Zack and Courtney. It was a good time, got to see my boys in JV. Met JV Mike finally, Tim, and some other good dudes. Having Hoods and Back of tha Neck play in a bar with poles everywhere is stellar idea. We didn't get back to Brewer until like 6:30, I'm still fucking exhausted.
random quotes:
"Why the fuck am I not at Terrah? Does it look like I have a fuckin warp machine? Shut the fuck up, ya fuckin moron."
"Who likes coffee brandy?" "ME!ME!ME!"
"This song is for all the faggots that went to Terror...FUCK YOU. DIE."
"Fun fact:______"
PS:
Happy Birthday cloud boy.
PS Part 2:
I turn 20 next sunday. Just a reminder.
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[23 Sep 2004|05:24pm] |
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x: name = karl
:x: piercings = none
:x: tattoos = none
:x: height = 5'11"
:x: shoe size = 13
:x: hair color = blonde
:x: length = short
:x: siblings = 1 sister
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = don't remember
:x: movie you bought = converge if that counts as a movie
:x: song you listened to = madball - across your face
:x: song that was stuck in your head = salvation by prayer for cleansing
:x: cd you bought = shadows fall
:x: cd you listened to = madball
:x: person you've called = courtney
:x: person that's called you = krys
:x: tv show you've watched = sportscenter this morning
DO...
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = no way, maine rules
:x: you think about suicide = no
:x: you believe in online dating = no
:x: you want more piercings = nope
:x: you drink = no
:x: you do drugs = no
:x: you smoke = no
:x: you like cleaning = sometimes
:x: you like roller coasters= yes
:x: you write in cursive or print = print
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a guy/girl = yes
:x: ever lied to someone = no
:x: ever been in a fist fight = yes
:x: ever been arrested = no
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = 1
:x: of hearts I have broken? = none that I know of
:x: of people I consider my enemies?= none really. Theres people I would like to see suffer but I don't spend time worrying about it anymore.
:x: of scars on my body? = a few on my hands and legs.
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = not really sure yet.
FAVORITE...
:x: disney movie =
:x: scent = a&f
:x: Phrase = get fucked
:x: nickname = metal karl
:x: eye color = blue
:x: food = chinese, lasagna, tacos
:x: song = "born to lose" a death for every sin
:x: thing to talk about = moving
:x: drink = water
:x: clothes = basketball shorts, hoodies
:x: movies = lots
:x: holiday = labor day
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty = no
:x: funny = no
:x: friendly = sometimes
:x: amusing = no
:x: loveable = yeah
:x: pessimistic = no
:x: optimistic = sometimes
:x: caring = yes
:x: sweet = i can be
:x: dorky = sort of
:x: Spell your first name back wards: lrak
:x: Are you straight?: yes
:x: Where do you live?: enfield, maine
:x: 4 words that sum you up: loyal, caring, ignorant, nice.
DESCRIBE YOUR -
:x: Wallet = brown
:x: Toothbrush = green and white
:x: Jewelry worn daily = none
:x: Pillow cover = one is white one is dark green
:x: Blanket = blue
:x: Sunglasses = none
:x: Shoes = white
RANDOM SHIT -
:x: CD in stereo right now = madball
:x: What you are wearing now = manny ramirez jersey, basketball shorts
:x: Hair = normal
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
:x: In my mouth = nothing
:x: In my head = that pfc solo
:x: Wishing = we were moving tomorrow
:x: After this = eating dinner, going to bed.
:x: Talking to = no one
:x: Eating = not a thing
:x: Person you wish you were with = no one
:x: Something you're looking forward to in this up coming month = possibly show tomorrow, THINK I CARE shows, getting a new car.
:x: Something that you are deathly afraid of = suffocation, paralysis
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[20 Sep 2004|07:42pm] |
At work today a Brazilian driver made a delivery. On the back of his trailer, he had spraypainted the following:
"Be a flirt, lift your shirt!"
and below it:
"I like white slutz." Also included was his cellphone number.
Amazing.
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[19 Sep 2004|01:03am] |
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Look into the face of danger and your integrity will lead you through. There is nothing that I can do. What the fuck are you running from? So face your fears to fight this world alone. Because every day I fight and fight, I fucking fight. Believe in no one. You owe it to yourself. Believe in no one and fight this world alone. And I, well I’m the one to live with my mistakes. To fight this world. So fuck this world. Well I owe it to myself to be true. You say that the image changed, but it all remained the same. Well I’ve never changed. And all this time I stayed the same and those words, they never changed. They stayed the same.
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[02 Sep 2004|12:24am] |
I won't make it to most of these shows, but heres my wishlist for the near future. Hopefully my car stops being a douchebag soon.
9/10/04 - Brockton, MA - Black My Heart, Shere Khan, Stand Accused
9/11/04 - Orono, ME - Have Heart, Guns up!, Youth Attack, SOS, Through Words
9/17/04 - Brockton, MA - Embrace Today, On Broken Wings, Colin of Arabia, Crime in Stereo, Hammer Bros
9/23/04 - Portland, ME - Hoods, Death Before Dishonor, Shere Khan
9/24/04 - Brockton, MA - Hoods, Back of tha Neck, Cheech, Never Look Back
9/24/04 - Worcester, MA - Unearth, Terror, The Black Dahlia Murder, Since the Flood (DAMMIT)
10/01/04 - Haverhill, MA - Think I Care, Stand Accused
10/02/04 - Portland, ME - Outbreak, Think I Care, Stand Accused, Stand or Fall
10/13/04 - Saint John, NB - Darkest Hour
10/15/04 - Worcester, MA - Children of Bodom, Lamb of God
10/17/04 - Fredricton, NB - Darkest Hour
10/29/04 - Worcester, MA - GWAR, Dying Fetus, All That Remains
10/30/04 - Portland, ME - 100 Demons, Bury Your Dead
11/27/04 - San Diego, CA - Over My Dead Body (Final Show)
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[31 Aug 2004|06:14pm] |
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I got a new job today, on Tuesday I start at a warehouse in Old Town. I'm going to be working 45-50 hours a week for the first few weeks, then it will be 40. I don't have to drive during work anymore, and I'm going to have full health/dental benefits. So it's a pretty sweet deal.
Yesterday I spent like three hours going shopping for appliances and housewares. This is going to happen for sure. It's changed my whole outlook on everything. Now I just have to get a dependable car and save some more money.
ATTN: Kate M. and Kate D., call me sometime this week so we can start planning our trip. We should buy tickets asap. 207.794.5700
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[28 Aug 2004|04:57am] |
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Life is actually going really good for me right now. I've gotten over some things that were holding me back, and I feel a lot better now. I feel like I've wasted this whole year. Thanks to the people who helped me through everything, you know who you are.
I haven't been doing much lately except working. I applied for some other jobs last week that will have me working 45-50 hours a week and they have full health benefits. I have to buy a car soon because the transmission on mine is not doing well. Hopefully I can buy a new car and still have enough money to move in a few months. The plan of moving is what is keeping me going basically, if I didn't have that to look forward to, I'd probably still be mopey and depressive.
Theres only one thing in the back of my head that is bothering me. I need to tell someone something, but I don't think I will have to courage to, or opportunity to before it's too late, and it's not who you're all thinking. Maybe it's for the best though.
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[07 Aug 2004|07:50pm] |
I know the pain, I feel it too and it's tearing us apart
Can you take a breath, push it aside
And pick yourself back up?
You know that the choice to live your life
Lies in the palm of your hand
You've got the answers you need, just look inside yourself
So much at stake, can't waste our time chasing standards
We never set
We know that the choice to live our lives
Lies in the palm of our hands
And with the struggles faced just to make it through the day
Stepped out of line and found a better way
So much at stake and we can't let our lives pass us by
And the only ones we'll ever chase
Are the standards that we set
Now's the time to leave all our mistakes behind
Because we've found the only truth we'll ever need
Every struggle faced and choices made will see us through
The words we've said, the promises kept,
Is the only truth we need
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[05 Aug 2004|01:11am] |
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Tonight I went to see "Harold and Kumar" with Ama. It was a decent movie. This is all I'm going to say about it: Doogie Houser doing a line of cocaine off a girl's ass, while on top of a speeding car. Yeah.
So it's been four months to the day and I'm still not over everything. Sometimes I think badly of myself because of this but whatever I can't change it. Even though I was hurt badly, I love that person so much I will never get over it.
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[04 Aug 2004|06:48pm] |
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[31 Jul 2004|05:01pm] |
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Goodbye, Nomar.
You will be missed. Good luck in Chicago.
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[29 Jul 2004|07:28pm] |
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Today was pretty damn boring. I was going to drive down and have lunch with Ama but my dog was really sick and I couldn't leave him alone. When my mother got home we went down to Bangor and I bought a birthday present for my sister. Super exciting day indeed.
I've been on another kick to go to Europe. I've put this on hold twice in the last year, the last time for a pretty damn good reason. I was literally weeks from leaving. I really haven't given it much thought since then though. I'd like to go this fall for a 2-3 week excursion. I really want to visit the British Islands, Sweden, Germany, Portugal and Greece. I also want to go to the middle east, but it's not as easy to get a cheap flight there and Americans aren't allowed in Iraq, which is the country I'd most like to visit in that region. Not that I wouldn't be able to find a way in though. Anyways, I'm gonna start getting on Euro hxc boards to find people that will allow me to stay with them if I do go. But I have to buy a car and if I ever want to move I need to save money. Fuck I hate money.
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